tres.

bored. bored. bored..

***

que sera, sera.

as i lie awake
in your arms
tears start to
form in my eyes;

with a heavy heart,
i tried to subdue it.

i never imagined
we would come to this..

and as i was on the verge of
breaking down

i turned away..

so you couldn't see..
so you couldn't feel..

so i could spare you
the guilt,

the pain,
this has caused me.

i tried to hold back ---
but this is beyond
what i could contain
this is too much.



too much.




muffled cries
i tried to stifle,
until i could no longer see.

still couldn't believe
you'd leave me.


you killed me with love
but now you let me live in death

you impassioned with such intensity
but now you kiss me
with such cold caresses

you held me enthusiastically
but now you touch me infinitesimally..


you left me hanging,



...for nothing.







my heart still aches for you;



but love,







where do i go now?

dos.

mangled bones;
i tried to ignore.

my breaths are numbered,
it's only a matter of time..


don't despair, love.
we will see each other again.


and then it goes..
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...i never even had the chance


to say goodbye...

uno.

his eyes



drifted, momentarily







towards her direction.







she,



sat there



almost without







blinking.





they looked



into





each other's eyes



and



knew



right from that moment,





they had found



the





ONE.

ninth.

i.

The lonesome man seated at his wooden chair
Still waiting for his one great love
To come back for him
Never moving on, not going forwards
Like the broken clock
That’s hidden beneath my bed
Silently signalling the dead;
To finally hear its calling
And summon everything not wanted ---
Killing it, Abandoning it.

ii.

People always search for the right things
But I have always been up for the wrong ones;
Though I know how much pain
This would cause me,
I dwell on it
Believing that it would someday
Bring me closer to you.

iii.

It is quite unbelievable
How when you whisper in my ear
And say things that boldly
Confess your once sworn love,
Satiates my soul;
Always leaving me breathless..

iv.

Alone and hopeless
While watching you go away
You never looked back
To the place where we met;
That day when I thought
I could call someone
To be my very own.

v.

These would be the last verses
I would write
About you and me
Though I love you still,
I have to move on now…


vi.

They say, in time,
All wounds become healed.
Somehow, they are right.
But what they don’t know is,
Where the wounds have ended,
A scar lies beneath.
Making it impossible to freely escape from it all..

failure.

unspoken words mean nothing..

if you always fear
of the unknown
or of not taking risks

you will never get hold
of what's been really
laid out for you.


you will always
feel regret
for not doing so.


failure
does not mean
you have failed
achieving your goal

it will always
teach you
something
far greater than
your expectations.

failure teaches you
to be humbled
and be humbled

despite



everything








unwanted.