*a new start*

i feel guilty knowing that i am too lazy to be studying. i am in my second year in college and i know i must be focused and disciplined because this is where all gore and blood starts to pour down on us. but i must say that at least i am trying what i could do just to cope with all the rigorous things being bombarded on us. it is not yet there but it would come, sooner or later and i have to work really hard.

it is not a sin being in this state of nostalgia wherein you look for something that would enamor you to be at your best, right? all of us want to feel that sometime in our lives. and just like others, i am still waiting for it.

anyway, i hope that i could still run and play some ball one of these days. i miss playing basketball, really. :)

*just a thought*

school starts in just a few more hours and i still get the knack of not wanting to start a new school year yet. it might be because of the laxity complex in me ruining what could be the start of me being a more mature kind of student. well, you can't blame me for i didn't spend my summer days as much as others did. but i still consider myself lucky if not over lucky because i'm given the chance to study and be a part of an institute that caters well to the needs of its students [no, im just bluffing] hahaha.. kidding aside, i am still anxious about the things that would happen but i know i just have to enjoy what lies ahead of me for every second i have matters. i have to be decisive with everything that life has to offer.

before, i think of life as that another phase in our lives that we need to get through each day. a momentarily glimpse of what would happen next or what could transpire if this or that happened. but now i have a more adept appreciation to the beauty of life. it might sound cheesy all right but no matter what, i feel that life has more meaning when you found this faith in God, one that would really guide you through and through and this love that you have for your family that would mean everything in anything. just the thought of that would i want to spend my life forever knowing that i have a life to live for those people and a life that i should enjoy because it is a blessing more so it is a gift that i treasure the most. although i have to find my purpose first, i will live accordingly. simple and beautiful. =)